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I HAVE A NEW PHONE.

TRIUMPH. \m/

I liiiiike iiiiiit. It's GOOOOOOD. :">

-Frobby-

Abandoned!

I guess after the super slowerage of my posting, many people stopped visiting my blog. So mostly no one gets to read the things I've been putting here. More proof in the chatbox. :P

I don't really want to advertise it anymore. :)) 

Nakakatamad na eh. Hahaha!

Oh well, I'm still going to post. :)

-Frobby-

Rent Flesh

I know that I love eating meat, but seeing raw cuts of pork in the meat section of the grocery earlier made me cringe a bit.

If they're already small and indistinguishable from the animals they came from, I'll be totally fine with seeing it. But the pork pata cut is still a whole, very much recognizable leg. And the one I saw a while ago (which my mom bought shortly afterwards) had the pig's thumb hanging on just by a tiny bit of skin and had a deep cut on somewhere on the elbow-ish joint. I felt sick after seeing that and just stopped observing. It was a bit too much for me, and I was surprised that I felt that way. :|

No, I'm not going to stop eating meat any time soon. :)) But I won't be the one buying it from a grocery. I guess I'm quite sensitive when it comes to blood, wounds and dead things. 

Which is weird, because I can stomach super violent video games naman. =))

But real things are just 120109218309 times worse than virtual things. :P

So yeah, no meat shopping for me. Hahaha.

-Frobby-

Surprises

Really, I think you can most easily be made happy if your expectations have been lowered. A surprise can just totally bring the house down for you after you begin anticipating disappointment. :)

Thank you so much for what you did.

You really surprised me, and I'm sorry for thinking that you wouldn't be able to stay true to what you said anymore.

You really made my day. :D

-Frobby-

One Fine Resolution

One of the resolutions I made during the start of 2010 was to blog at least 15 times a month. Well, I'm kind of way below that count but I hope to make up for it by making a TON of catch-up posts. The thing about this blog is that not all of the posts should be super long and full of meaning. So I'm going to use that to my advantage and bump up the number of posts in the coming months. 

I need quite a bit of push for this project though *wink wink* so please help me make it through this year as a consistent blogger. :)

That's going on my goals list!

15 posts x 12 months = 180 posts

That means 180 posts by the end of 2010. 

Let's do this.

Goal # 7:

180 posts by the end of 2010.

28/180

-Frobby-

Goal Update.

Goals:

1. To lose 12 pounds -

Uhh. I'm putting this on hold.
 

2. ????? - 5/5 (Done!) 18/25 -  

It's been so long, but at least this got a +1 today. :)
 

3. To find the course that I'm sure I want - 

Getting closer. I've narrowed it down to 2 choices.

 
4. To watch Paramore live

Nah. I don't really feel like it anymore.
 

5. To get my PC fixed

Probably this summer. I really hope so.

 
6. To finish Fallout: New Vegas
COME OUT ALREADY. :((((

About Me: Thinking

So I haven't been able to blog lately because of the supercrazy schedules we've been having in school. Projects galore and exams kasi eh, tapos throw in a bit of Hilites pa. :)) It's a complicated life I live. Well, not really. Hahaha.

I just want to say that I've had some time to get to know myself more. It's interesting to find out things about yourself that you wouldn't really notice unless you paid attention. It's even more interesting to find out the flaws you have and trying to do something about it. Self-improvement can be a really difficult thing to face, but hey, it's really worth it. 

Contrary to popular belief, my greatest distraction is not computer usage. :P I actually waste more time drifting through connected thoughts during the times when I should be doing something else. Thinking, surprisingly, takes up so much time for me that it eats up quite a large part of my time in each day. Yeah, sure, it sounds kind of loser-introvert-nerd when said but my thoughts mean a lot to me. Hey, even this blog is dedicated to house and preserve the thoughts which I deem worthy of keeping for a long time. :) I just like thinking about things because I believe that doing so will give me a better understanding of my world and life. That helps me a lot.

What sucks though, is that even if I understand what's wrong and what I need to do, I have a very flimsy sense of willpower. One moment, I can be shouting at myself in my head and telling myself to fix a certain thing I noticed was wrong and the next could be spent doing the very thing I wanted to change. I have to change that about me, but trying to will be like requiring myself to enter a locked room whose only key can be found inside. The solution is within the problem.

But self-improvement has really been my main goal in recent times. I want to be better because I know I can be better. This isn't me at my full potential. And I doubt I'm anywhere close.

I need help. But in the end, it's only I who can help myself realize my goals.

-Frobby-